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Never meant to be- Chapter 1:New Job

Posted by Ashlea Burns on September 15, 2011 at 7:05 PM Comments comments (0)

Chapter 1: New Job

I was in my last year of college, and I was trying to get an internship in a business this

summer. A friend of mine said she could get me a position as an assistant to a

model/actor. It wasn't exactly what I had in mind but it sounded intriguing. Tomorrow

was my first day as the assistant, the friend that got me the job was going with me. I

was alittle nervous about meeting this guy, he wasn't a very big actor or anything he

mostly modeled. So I was going to be his personal assistant, keep him on schedule,

make sure he signs paperwork he has to sign, stuff like that. One of the best parts of

this job is I would get to travel everywhere he goes.

The next morning I met up with Sally to go meet this guy and to start working. When we

got to the studio we stood there waiting for him to come off of a model shoot. He was

really good looking, I kept staring at him. My heart started racing when I thought about

how I would be with this guy alot, traveling with him. I was really nervous now, I just had

to remember he was my boss and he was somewhat famous. So he would never be

interested in someone like me. Well after the shoot was over the guy walked over to

introduce himself.

"Hi, I'm Sally" Sally said as she shook his hand.

He smiled at her and replied "Hi, Sally I'm Nathan Jackson" Then he turned to me and

asked with a smile "And who might you be?"

I reached out to shake his hand as I said "I'm Caitlyn, your new assistant" when his

hand touched mine it was like someone shocked me. My heart started racing again.

"Really?" he asked.

"Yes" Sally replied as I just stared at him.

Sally nudged me "Oh sorry" I said as my face turned red.

"It is nice to meet you" he said with a laugh.

"Likewise" I replied as we headed out of the studio.

"Well I got to go" Sally said "Have a good first day."

Then she left. I was nervous and scared. I was alone with this gorgeous guy and I was

trying not to lose my self control. I have only known him for twenty minutes and yet I feel

like I have known him all my life. I knew it was just a crush and that it wouldn't amount to

anything. But still we were alone and he was so hot.

Well he took me to his house, it was so amazing. Big and bright. He showed me

around and showed me where everything was, then he filled me in as to what all I

would be doing. He gave me a little palm pilot thing that had all his appointments and

information in it.

"This is for keeping me on schedule" he said.

"Oh alright, I will make sure I keep you on track" I replied.

"Let me show you to your room" he said as he was laughing at me.

I was alittle shocked to be staying with him, he had alot of people here though, he had a

maid, a cook, accountant and some other people I wasn't really sure what they all were

there was gardeners and such.

He led me up the big stairway and down the long hall. There were so many rooms

here. He stopped in front of a door and said "This will be your room."

I opened the door and walked in. It was beautiful, it was huge, there was a big queen

bed, it had a bathroom, the walls were tan and the floor was wood.

"Wow" I said in amazement.

"You like it?" he asked with a smile.

"Like it? I love it" I said smiling back at him.

"I'm glad. My room is just down the hall if you need anything." he said "I will let you get

settled and dinner will be ready in an hour" Then he left.

After I unpacked and freshened up I sent Sally a text that said "Thanks so much for

getting me this job, Nathan is amazing"

Then she sent one back that said "You are welcome, I knew you would love it" Then I

went downstairs to find Nathan and see what all we had to do for tomorrow.

When I walked into the kitchen Nathan was sitting at the table looking through a

magazine. "Hi" I said as I entered the room.

He turned to look at me and replied "Hi, are you all settled now?"

"Yes" I replied with a smile as I sat down at the table near him.

I left a seat between us, I didn't want him to think I was stalking him or anything. "So" I

said "What all do you have to do tomorrow?

I haven't looked at the palm thing yet."

He just smiled "Well I have to go to a screen test for an upcoming movie." He said.

"Oh" I replied looking alittle confused.

"It is like a rehearsal, to see if I would be good in the role." he said.

I looked at him for a minute then it finally sank in. "Oh, I see. That is cool."

He laughed at me. "You have never done this before have you?"

I blushed then replied "No, but that doesn't mean I can't do it."

He laughed again and said "I'm sure you will do fine." I smiled at him as the cook

served us dinner.

After dinner I went up to my room and started getting everything organized for tomorrow.

I kept thinking to myself that I hope I can do this.

The next morning I got up at 8am, I had to make sure Nathan was up, ready and that we

left by 10am.

His screen test was set for 11am and the studio was only twenty minutes away but this

L.A. traffic is crazy so we have to leave early to make sure we get there on time.

I went and knocked on Nathan's bedroom door. "Nathan" I said "It's Caitlyn, are you up?

It is 8am."

I heard alittle stirring around then he said "Yes, Caitlyn. I am up. Thank you."

I went downstairs and into the kitchen. "Good Morning, Ms. Caitlyn." said the cook.

She was a sweet lady her name was Maria. I sat down at the table and she brought me

breakfast. "Thank you Maria." I said with a smile.

She smiled back and replied "Your Welcome Caitlyn."

It was strange having someone cook for me, I haven't had that since I was a teenager. It

was kind of nice though, in a strange way.

But I still like to prepare my own food though.

While I was eating Nathan came into the kitchen. "Hi Maria, Hi Caitlyn." he said as he

sat down.

"Hi" I replied with a smile.

"Hi Mr. Jackson." Maria said as she sat Nathan's breakfast in front of him.

"Thank you." he said as she walked away. He looked at me and said "So. are you ready

for your first day?"

I half smiled and replied "As ready as I will ever be."

He laughed "You will be fine." he said as he started eating his breakfast.

I tried not to stare at him, it was so hard cause he was amazingly hot. It was hot today in

L.A. so he was wearing khaki shorts and a nice shirt. I loved how the tight shirt showed

off his hot abs that were under it. I sat there staring off into space thinking about him,

wondering what it would be like to be with him. He must have a ton of girlfriends I

thought.

While I was daydreaming I heard him say "Caitlyn, are you alright?" I snapped back to

reality and said

"Oh, I'm sorry!"

He just laughed "It is 10am, we should get going."

I got up and replied "Yes, of course. Lets go." Then we headed out the door.

I was actually surprised he didn't have a driver, but I guess him

being a guy he liked to drive and show off his sports car. We walked

to the garage and got into the car. It wasn't was I expected, instead of

a driving the nice shiny convertible he took the more laid back SUV.

He even opened the door for me then shut it after I got in.

I was so impressed with him, I thought he would be stuck up or

something since he was a model and actor. But he wasn't, which

made me like him even more. Not only does he have manners, and

money, he has looks, now if he has brains then he is the total

package.

I started daydreaming again on the way to the studio, which

made the drive go by really quick. When we got there he went in for

his screen test and I waited on him. People were calling his cell to set

up appointment and stuff. I was trying to keep up with everything.

The palm pilot made it really easy to organize stuff.

Nathan came out after about an hour."So how did it go?" I asked

as we walked back out to the car.

"It went well." he said with a smile "They said they will let me

know next week."

"That's great!" I replied with a smile.

We got into the car and left. "Oh, you have a few appointments.

People kept calling I hope it's alright that I made them." I said.

"Of course it is, that's what you are for." he said laughing. "What

are they?"

I looked at the palm pilot and said "You have a 1pm tomorrow

with someone named. Marissa Donovan."

He didn't say anything, he just had this look on his face like Oh

great her again. I wasn't sure what that meant.

"Um, is she a friend?" I asked kind of curious.

"Not really" he replied "More of an acquaintance."

"Oh" I said looking alittle confused "Do you want me to

cancel?"

"No" he replied "I meet with her once a month for business."

Then the rest of the ride was quiet. When got to some restaurant

downtown he asked " Are you hungry?"

I looked at him then replied "Yeah" then I smiled at him.

So we went into the restaurant and sat down. The waitress came

over and gave us our menus, after a few minutes we ordered.

While we were waiting Nathan said "So Caitlyn, tell me alittle

bit about yourself."

"Well" I started "What would you like to know?"

He smiled then said "Well how old are you?"

"25" I replied. "And yourself?"

"27" he said with a smile. "What are your interests or hobbies?"

he asked while sipping on his water.

 

"Um, I like pretty much anything" I said "I like outdoors stuff, I

like art, um, yeah, pretty much anything."

He smiled at me. "Yeah, me too." he said.

I smiled back, we sat there talking and asking stuff about each

other. "So what is your major?" he asked.

"Business management" I replied.

"Wow!" he said "That's great!"

"What about you?" I asked "Did you go to college or anything?"

He laughed then replied "Actually I did, I have a degree in

engineering."

"Really?" I asked.

I was shocked. He did have it all. Looks, brains, manners,

money. He was every girls dream guy.

"Yeah, I actually just finished school last year." he replied.

We sat there talking until our food got there, then we ate. I was

so fascinated by him, more then I was yesterday. But I had to keep it

cool, since he was my boss. I kept saying this over and over in my

head.

After lunch we went to some meeting for Nathan's modeling

then we went home. When we got there Maria was making dinner,

so I went to my room to freshen up. I took a shower and got dressed,

the day went pretty good I thought.

Before I went back downstairs I send Sally a text, I told her how

things went today. She sent me one back and said to keep her

updated. Afterwards I headed downstairs to go over tomorrows

agenda with Nathan.

When I got downstairs Nathan was sitting on the couch, I sat on

the chair that was across from him.

"So" I said "Do you want to go over the agenda for tomorrow?"

He smiled and said "Of course, come sit here and we will look at

it." He patted the cushion on the couch beside him.

I was alittle nervous to sit so close to him, but I got up and went

over to the couch and sat down anyway.

He smelled so good, I couldn't help but to stare at him. I tried to

make it look like I was just looking at him while discussing the

agenda but it was hard sometimes. I showed him he had a meeting at

9am, then a lunch with a producer, then a 1pm meeting with Marissa

Donovan. He didn't seem very happy when I said her name, I

wondered what the deal was with the two of them, but I didn't ask

cause it wasn't any of my business.

While we were going over the agenda Nathan reached over to

point at something on the palm pilot.

When he did our hands touched for a split second, I got a shock

though my body when I felt his hand touch mine. I jerked back a

little bit.

"Are you alright?" he asked.

I looked at him a little embarrassed "Yes, I am fine." I said as I

looked at the palm pilot. "You also have a 4pm photo shoot

tomorrow." I said trying to change the subject.

"Alright" he replied " So a pretty busy day then huh?"

"Yes" I replied with a smile. About that time Maria announced

that dinner was ready so we went into the kitchen and ate dinner.

After dinner I went to my room and spent some alone time

writing in my journal. This job wasn't what I expected but it is really

cool. I am having a great time with Nathan. He is such a wonderful

person. After awhile I went to bed.

The next morning I got up at 7am and got ready. We had to be at

a meeting at 9am so we had to get going soon. I came downstairs and

Nathan was already eating breakfast, I sat down as Maria brought me

mine.

"You look nice." Nathan said with a smile.

I smiled back and relied "Thanks" Then I ate breakfast.

After we ate, we headed to the meeting, I stayed in the lobby and

took calls and made appointment.

Afterwards we headed to the lunch with the producer. It was a

great time, the producer was really nice and the movie he was

wanting to do sounded great.

After lunch Nathan said "Caitlyn, I am going to take you back to

the house and I will meet you at the photo shoot tonight."

I looked at him kind of confused. "You don't want me at the next

meeting?" I asked

"No" he said "I prefer to meet with Marissa alone, if that is

alright."

I was still confused but I said "So how do I get to the shoot?"

"You can take one of the cars." he said. I just looked at him.

"How do I get there?" I asked. So he gave me the directions and

took me to the house.

I wasn't sure what to think, was this women someone he was

hiding? Was she his girlfriend or something. He said he only met

with her once a month. What was the deal with that? I was confused

as to what was going on but I tried not to think about it.

Later in the day I headed out to the photo shoot. I got lost of

course but I somehow ended up finding the right place. When I got

there Nathan had just walked in and was going to get ready for the

shoot. I was on the phone making more appointments.

When he came out to do the shoot I about fainted, I didn't realize

it was a swimsuit shoot. Nathan was in a pair of small swimming

tights. He was covered in baby oil, which made his muscles even

more noticeable.

I sat there staring at him with my mouth wide open. I was in

total shock and total fascination. He was so amazingly handsome, so

perfect in every way. Why did I torture myself being around

someone I knew I never had a chance to be with. I guess I did it

cause I wanted to be around him.

Never Meant To Be- Chapter 2: Shocking

Posted by Ashlea Burns on September 15, 2011 at 6:20 PM Comments comments (0)

Chapter 2: Shocking

After he finished the photo shoot we headed home. When we got

home, Maria had dinner ready so we ate then I went over the agenda

for tomorrow and went to bed. I laid in bed wondering how it went

with Marissa, I didn't want to ask him cause if he wanted me to know

he would have took me with him. As I laid there thinking my mind

started thinking about him at the photo shoot. He looked amazing,

I had the biggest crush on my boss, but I couldn't let him know.

The next morning I got up at 8am, we didn't have anything to do

till 1pm so I spent some time sending Sally a text. After that I took a

shower, got dressed and went downstairs. By that time is was almost

10am.

When I walked into the kitchen Nathan was sitting at the table,

he looked at me and said "Good Morning."

I smiled and sat down "Morning" I replied. We didn't say much

else. I ate my breakfast as Nathan drank his coffee.

Well after alittle bit we got in the car and headed to lunch with a

director. While in the car Nathan said "You are awfully quiet, are

you alright?"

I looked at him and replied "Yes, I am fine." then I turned and

looked out the window.

"Did I make you mad about something?" he asked.

You could hear the concern in his voice. I wasn't mad and I

didn't want him to think I was.

"No, of course not." I said with a smile.

He smiled back and then it was quiet again.

When we got to the restaurant we went in and sat down. Nathan

met with the director for the same movie he met with the producer

of. I stayed quiet while they talked, I felt alittle out of place. Nathan

agreed to do the movie, which meant he had to go to London next

month to start it. I was actually alittle excited because I got to go

with him.

I always wanted to see London. After lunch Nathan and I headed

back home for awhile. He didn't have anything else today so he could

just relax.

When we got back to the house, Nathan went to do some stuff

and I took calls and made appointments.

Since he would be out of town after next month I had to get as

much stuff scheduled this month. So I worked on that most of the

evening.

So over the next few weeks Nathan was very busy, from photo

shoots to meetings to lunch appointments. It was kind of fun when it

was all busy.

Well when it was time to head to London, I was packing my

stuff and then I went to help Nathan. I wanted to make sure he had

everything he needed. After that was done, and we ate breakfast, we

headed to the airport. I don't fly much so I was alittle scared.

"What's wrong?" Nathan asked as we boarded the plane.

"Um, I don't like to fly very much." I said alittle embarrassed.

He just laughed. "You will be fine." he said as we sat down.

Nathan sat at the window seat in case I got sick or something. It

wasn't to bad after we took off. You almost forgot you was in a

plane, almost.

I tried to relax on the trip, I listened to music and went over the

agenda for our time in London. Nathan slept most of the way. He

woke up right before we got ready to land. I started getting nervous

as we were trying to land.

I kept thinking what if we crash. I got so scared when we first hit

 

the runway that I went to grab the arm rest, Nathan's hand was there

so I ended up grabbing it instead.

I didn't mean to, and I didn't realize I did until after when he said

"Caitlyn?"

I looked at him and said "Yeah"

He laughed "May I have my hand back?" he asked.

I looked down to see that I had ahold of his hand, I jerked back

quickly and said "I'm sorry!" then I blushed. He just laughed as we

got up and left the plane.

Well we went straight to the hotel to check in and get freshened

up. It was an amazing hotel, it had everything, an indoor pool, gym,

restaurant everything. So we checked in, we had separate rooms but

they were across from each other. I went to mine and he went to his.

The first thing we were doing was going to dinner with the

producer, he was going to give Nathan the script and everything.

Nathan said it was a fancy restaurant so I got dressed up.

Nathan knocked on my door about an hour after we arrived, I

was ready so I answered it. When I opened the door he was standing

there in a black tux. He looked great.

"Wow!" he said "You look amazing!" I smiled. I was wearing a

black strapless dress that came to my knees and black heels.

"Thanks" I said "So do you." He smiled and then we headed out

to the restaurant.

When we got there we sat down, I looked at the menu,

everything was extremely pricey. I got the cheapest thing I could

find. I'm not really sure what it even was. But after we ate Mr.

Wood, that was the producer, he left.

Well before we left Nathan asked me if I would like to dance. I

smiled and said "Yes" so we went out and started dancing, I wasn't

very good but neither was he.

We stood close to each other, it made a pulse run through me. I

was trying to hide it so he didn't see how much I liked him.

After we danced we went back to the hotel. I decided to go

swimming that night to help me to relax. I have always enjoyed

indoor pools and they also had a hot tub. So I sat in the hot tub for

awhile then got into the pool. I stayed there for a good while. I was

back in the hot tub relaxing when I heard someone come in. I turned

around and it was Nathan.

"Mind if I join you?" he asked.

I smiled "No, not at all." I replied.

He walked over to the hot tub and took off his robe. He was

wearing one of those swimming things that he wore in the photo

shoot. It was so small, I kept trying not to stare at him.

He was in the hot tub and I kept looking at his gorgeous body.

After a little bit I said "Well I better go, I am really tired." So I got up

out of the hot tub.

"Have a good night." he said as I was leaving.

I got to my room and got dressed then went to bed. It was hard

to keep my mind off him. I just wanted to tell him so bad how I felt,

but I knew it was a waste of time. I was afraid to let myself go cause

it is hard to tell where it would go. And besides he would never be

interested in someone like me. Plus he was my boss.

Well the next couple days were busy, Nathan was doing

rehearsals and then they started filming. I would go to the filming

with him and watch. It interested me to see how they did movies.

Nathan was really good, very talented.

It was an action movie so he had alot of big scenes. They did

have him a double so when he had to do something dangerous the

double did it for him. It was a great time.

Well the next day we had alot of appointments to go to. It was

late when we got back to the hotel and we were each in our rooms

but I had to get him to sign some papers so I knocked on his hotel

room and heard a voice say "Come in."

 

So I walked inside and heard the voice again say "I'll be out in a

minute."

Since I heard water running I was guessing he was taking a

shower. So I sat the folders I had in my hand down on the table, that

was in the corner of the room and started sorting out the papers he

needed to look at and sign.

As I was doing that I heard him say "Hi there."

I turned around with some papers in my hands and said "Hi."

I wasn't really paying attention cause I was looking at the papers

I had. So when I looked up, I dropped the papers as soon as I seen

him. It wasn't what I expected, he was in nothing but a towel, that

was wrapped around his waist, his upper body was still wet, you

could see the beads of water all over him. he glistened in the light. I

just stood there staring at him.

As he walked towards me I said "I'm so sorry I can come back

later."

I bent down and picked up the papers I dropped. As I gathered

the papers on the table up he said "No, this is the perfect time."

He was standing close enough to me that I could feel the heat

and the moisture coming off his body. I stepped away from him as he

started to get closer.

He looked at me and said "I have felt something for you since

we first met." I didn't know what to say I just looked at him. Then he

said "I know you may not have the same feelings but I just need to

let my feelings out and if you reject them then that is alright."

I looked at him in shock "It's not that I don't feel the same way."

I replied.

"Then what is it?" he asked as he ran the back of his hot, wet

hand across my cheek.

"It's just" I started then I pulled away from him, "It's just if I let

my feelings go it is hard to tell how it will end up."

He got inches from me and said "Lets see where they take us,

then." He leaned in and kissed me.

I felt a sudden rush of warmth and sparks pulsing through my

body. The room started spinning as we continued to kiss.

I felt him pulling my shirt off, then I felt his hands running all

over my body, they were so warm. I ran my hands up his chest to his

shoulders, then through his hair. He unbuttoned my pants and before

I knew it he picked me up and laid me on the bed. I felt his warm,

wet body pressing against mine, as he kissed me more and more

deeply. I was having trouble staying focused. The electricity that was

running though my body was hard to contain. I was trying not to

totally lose all my control. I have felt something for him since day 1,

I was just too scared to tell him.

And now here I was half naked in the bed with him. I didn't

know what to do, my mind kept saying to push him away and run out

the door but my heart was saying to stay. I never dreamed that this

would happen, well I have dreamed about it but I never thought in a

million years that someone like him would be into someone like me.

I had so many emotions running through my body I could hardly

contain them. His kiss and touch was more then I could handle. He

made me so warm then I was hot and I couldn't help but just let it all

go. His kiss was like a volt of electricity going through me and I

couldn't contain it because my lips were like magnets against his. All

I could think of was getting even closer to him, every time he

touched me I felt an electric pulse all through my body.

The rest is a blur, I remember the feel of our bodies together, the

feel of his kiss and touch. I don't know what all happened that night

but I do know that it was incredible.

The next morning I woke up and I started to wonder if it was all

a dream. I rolled over and there he was, in bed with me. I was so

shocked, and happy. I laid my head on his chest.

I felt his hand on my neck as he said "Good Morning."

I smiled as I looked up at him. "Morning" I said. He leaned

down and gave me a kiss.

I couldn't believe this was real, it was so amazing. I looked up at

him and said "I have a confession."

He smiled and said "What's that?"

I sat up in the bed keeping the sheet around me and said "I have

been in love with you since I met you."

He smiled at me and replied "So have I." Then he leaned

towards me and kissed me again.

This was so amazing, I looked at him and said "So, what made

you decide to tell me how you felt?"

"Well the other night when we were in the hot tub, I couldn't

help but stare at you. I was going to tell you then but you ran off to

quick. I thought maybe you picked up on me and ran away." he said

with a smile.

I laughed and said "No, I was trying to hide my feeling for you

as well. I ran off before I could admit how I felt."

He smiled and held me close again. It was the most incredible

feeling. I hoped it would never end.

But we had to get up so Nathan could go do filming today, I still

had to get him to sign the papers he needed to sign. So I got up and

went to the bathroom, I took a shower and put a robe around me. All

my clothes were in the other hotel room so I had to go get them.

While I was over there getting dressed Nathan got a shower and

got ready as well.

After we were ready we headed out. On the way Nathan said

"Do you want to stay in the room with me?"

I smiled and replied "If you would like me to."

He smiled back "Of course" he said giving me a kiss, then he

held my hand on the way to the film site.